Hear me out.

There were many things that I regret until these days but among all, I could never forgive myself for a sin that I've done.All I can think of is how could I did that to myself. Just like anyone else. Everyone make mistakes. And there's me. It wasn't even a mistake. It was a choice. I regret it. For every single of my brain and body and soul. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I mean it. I do. But I do realize I can't turn back the time and to be honest I don't know anything i could do to make it right. All I know is, I have to move on with my life. As it will forever will be a Cain for me. It's not okay. But this is what I have left. So don't pity me for my mistakes. If you saw me sad and cannot move on, I'm telling you this. I'm trying. And no one can help me except for me. I deserve my punishment but I also deserve to love and find myself. So don't worry. The worst thing I can do is cry my heart out. I know you guys are worried. I'm worried about myself too. But what's life without our mistakes and a total victory at the end?