The Past

I see everyone faces
One by one showed up in my fraction of memories,
Their smile and laughs,I can still hear them in my box of memories.
And I saw myself in the corner of my class,trying and struggling in every pages only to forget it later,
In the middle of the quiet rainy day, I  spend with my two other friend in the same class.
i remember the hectic enviroment,with everyone speaking the languages that i dont recall.
But still i lived until today, even in the place im not used too,
And i still enjoy my days there
Even with  bad memories lingering around
I love the people even if its weird to be feeling soo,
i dont care,I'm miss them
There are days I feel like I'm just breathing, but I always find ways to make me feel better,
And the rainy days come again and I'm in vain again,
Even if I try, I know I can't,
But still I try than giving up easily
I saw them getting better at what I'm supposed to,
I guess my ambition is too big even
for me,
I loved how the helped me, even if I know it's useless,
But thank you, for everything, for every moment I feel like dying, you guys where there, supporting me in my worst days,
And to my two classmate ,thank you for staying beside this weird creature,
I'm always grateful.
The wind blows in my face,I don't even know how my appearance is,
I just don't care right now,
I see what's in front of me, and I try to decipher what it means,
But this field is just not for me,
I felt stupid 24/7 but I still go through,
I roamed and roamed around again and again.
Now I'm all grown up and listening to this melody, I miss every piece of that place even if it's a curse for me,
And I love them all, the perfectly imperfect  people that loved me within their deepest heart.