Dont ever come back

I realized that I've been a victim to my own mind. I've done too many decision that makes me bleed. I saw how stupid I was. But still..i wanna believe in my own vision and unbelievable stupidity of hope and love. I got trapped and in the end, i ended up hurting myself over and over again. I saw you as a miracle. As a gift,as a magical creatures. You're not prince charming. Nor that you're Jack from Titanic, you're every gentlemen that a girl would die for. You don't have the looks but you're quite decent for your age. And the right amount of manners. Enough manners to make people like you and enough rudeness to make people avoid you. You're a little bit of everything. Like a new blended coffee. A little bit of freshness with a familiar smell. Like the scent of new books in every pages. On the shelves, in an old bookstore. You're everything i could ever dream of, a dreamer, a gentleman, except for loyalty. That one criteria thats the most important to me. You dont have that. But i try to make you have it. I tried to make you own it. I was motivated to made you better at it. And stopped rushing things in your way. I opened every door to you empty soul. Ripped off all your anxiety. And in return you pushed me off the cliff. I put my heart and soul in your hands. That was my biggest mistake. But its okay now. I got this. Now that you walked away, Im gonna tell you this. Im not that baymax anymore,im not your comfort pillar nor that a place for you to rest your head when you heart shattered on the ground. I wont be the water to your blazing fire. I won't be the healer anymore. Now,I'm busy fixing my own souls and weaving my own pattern. I'll get busy bitting the bullet and avoiding grenades. Shaking off feelings and dancing through the air. I wont have anymore time for you. So hear this out, dont come back. Even if your stars dies and the galaxy collapses, dont come back. I dont have time for your corrupted disastrous soul.